Each day is a new day, a day that we have not seen before, and it is our gift to greet. How did you greet today? With love in your heart, or fear and anger at that which you cannot control?
I watch my adoptive Uncle as he faces his death. He is ready to move forward to see the next life. His body clings to life, and his mind says “Let Go, Please just let go!” I look at him and I am grateful for the moments that we have shared, and time we will share until that moment when Death opens its door. I am grateful that he hangs on moment to moment, for I wish him not to go. And yet I know that with his Death will come a peace for him that is unlike no other that he has experienced. I want him to rest and to be free of his pain. I want for the pain to let go. My Uncle’s pain puts my pain into perspective. His pain allows me to let go of my pettiness, of my selfish wants. When I am unable to sleep at night and I feel frustration and anger, I think of how lucky I am that I am not shitting out my belly into a bag from a body riddled with cancerous tumors!” Yes, His pain allows me to see a clearer path of living. His strength allows me to face all that is before me with a courage that had I not know him, I wonder if I would have. I cannot fault him for his desire to just ‘end it.’ And yet he continues to live each day. He continues to share his love with his family. Despite it all he musters the courage to face each day anew; as a day he has never seen before! Thank you Uncle Mark, Much love and Gratitude!
“Suicide is a Permanent solution to a Temporary problem.” A friend once said this to me many years ago when I was a young man. I find strength in its meaning, and in its clarity. This too shall Pass, is another phrase that I find brings great strength and will. As our lives unfold and the plans that we make crumble to dust in an instant, we face our fears and reach deep inside for the courage to continue moving forward. We put one foot in front of the other and make the best of moments. We unconsciously live our stories, and we seek for the evidence to back those stories up. It can be a vicious cycle that tears the soul of a person apart.
Breathe and Let Go
Life is without meaning. It is up to you to give the meaning.
A story to illustrate:
A young man was working in the fields many years ago. He had worked hard all day and was making his way home when he fell breaking his leg. He rolled upon the ground screaming in agony for many minutes. After a time, he slowly made his way home writhing in pain, all the way think how unfortunate it was he had damaged himself. Days later as he lay in his cool bed eating fresh bread and cheese, sipping cool water, and looking out over the scorching hot fields toward the men and women working. He thought of how glad he was to not be out in the heat, and how maybe breaking his leg had not been such a bad thing after all.
A few weeks past and the young man was rising from bed when he heard a great commotion outside his home. He reached for his crutches and slowly made his way out toward the noise. As he approached the crowd of towns folk, he saw the most magnificent sight. A man of great stature sat upon a white horse. The man was obviously a military sort with all the fanciness of his wardrobe the young man thought to himself. The General spoke, ” I demand, the service of all able bodied men in this village. We meet at the edge of town at sunset!” The General spurred his horse forward toward the young man. “You will not do!” The General pointed at the young man as he rode past. The young man bowed his head and turned returning to rest in his bed, thinking of how unfortunate it was that he had broken his leg.
A few weeks later a messenger appeared carrying news. The war was over. The messenger then spoke slow as he informed the remaining townspeople that most of the men of the village had been killed in battle, and only a hand full would be returning home. The young man was shocked. He looked at his nearly healed leg and thought how lucky he was that he had not been with the other men of the village.
He would be one of the few men tending the fields and this could lead to great fortune. How fortunate was he that he had not been called to war.
An obstacle to one, is a challenge to another, is unseen at all by a few. You get to give the meaning.
Each of us laugh, cry, and celebrate the joy of life. each of us has the power to create our own experience and all of us need help. I was reminded of this fact earlier as I faced my recent past and felt the waves of emotions smash through me. Breaking the make shift walls, dams and barriers that I had erected in the last few years. Destroyed in a moment and I found myself reduced to my knees filled with a sadness that poured from my essence. I found myself depressed and alone. I felt the pain of loss, of being deceived, abandoned and betrayed. Chocking with sobs and pain, I did my best to not resist. I let the pain, the hurt, the sadness, and the raw anger burn and pour through me. I let it cleanse me. I let flow through me like a great river. I let it wash thrash me like a great wave beating upon my soul.
I now sit on the other side of a moment that I dreaded and new would be painful. I had spent years hiding from facing the pain. I had spent all matter of means to numb, mask and forget the pain. I lived in a self induced coma. A medicated bath of nothingness. I was willing to do most anything to escape facing the inevitable pain that returned time and again. I let go and I reached out to others and they gave support and much need affection. They gave me their stories, and their pain, and through their strength and courage I found mine. Like a solider being trained, I found those who would teach me to become a Peaceful Warrior, a man of action, and a man of compassion. Like all of us can, I found the strength to rise and face that which I feared from within. I found my inner courage and I turned the page to create a new chapter.
You have this inner power, and you have the power to help others. You have the power to help others find the courage to face this life with an open heart, and to be ready to receive all that it has offer. What is painful today may always be painful, may become a gift, or one day it may just BE. Take comfort in the knowledge that we all share this pain, this journey. None are immune and these scars help create the soul of you.
Know that there are people who love you out there! And there are people waiting to love you. It is our gift, love. There is no reason to hold back. We are all in this together.
As a Massage Therapist, I understand the value of Touch and of Listening. We are social creatures and we need to be touched and we need to be heard. Part of the power of Massage Therapy is Touch. A conscious MT can help to clear stuck, negative and excessive Energy. For many of us, being cleared is an important step in helping to heal our inner wounds. And though not often realized, the conscious MT listens. A conscious MT listens and then develops a treatment plan that may include manual manipulation and it may also include helping a client to see that they need a deeper more layered treatment plan with a variety of professionals!
Letting go can be very difficult and it can also be one of the most freeing and empowering moments in a person’s life. What is important to understand is that the Conscious Therapist approaches from a Neutral position and this allows them to be a powerful conduit of change. Creating change in Both the body and the mind.
I think that for some of us its about being seen and having someone acknowledge that we do matter. That we are important to this world. I say to you now that you are important! You might be the one that saves me! So remember that even in the darkest night there is a light to be found. I ask that you Give freely of your love and I too will give, and together we all will create a beautiful life!
I say to those that I have yet to meet;
Let yourself Flow Free